I woke up in super crappy mood today. I’ve had a great weekend and have no reason to feel rubbish but I can only think the issues I’ve been dealing with throughout the week have affected me more than I’ve realised. I’ve finally started divorce proceeding, sitting with a solicitor talking about why your marriage failed is not fun. Selling a house is stressful and trying to buy the place you want is even more stressful. After feeling more upbeat the last few weeks I cut down my anti-depressants without medical advice, in hindsight this was a little premature so I upped the dosage again this morning. Lack of sleep often throws me of kilter and these warm nights coupled with staying at someone else’s house have probably not helped my mood.
Sometimes I really irritate myself, I currently feel like a toddler who is having a tantrum in the middle of the supermarket because my mum won’t buy me something I’m demanding. I could actually stamp my feet and burst into tears with how irritated I feel.
One thing I love about blogging is once I’ve written my feelings down it’s out there and it helps me let go. So, be gone irritating chimp. I don’t want you on my shoulder today.